Nerd @ 190

Today I am thankful for enough motivation coming to bring me back to writing. I am thankful for old friends. I am thankful for my husband helping to take care of me when I cannot take care of myself. I am thankful for depression being accuratly represented on TV. I am thankful for doctor taking steps to move me forward.  I have been gone for a while.  I am coming back out of necessity.  Rather than continue with my health journey leading towards a better me, my health journey has lead me to be jobless because I none of my efforts allowed me to work full time (and get bills paid).  I am living in the basement of  my childhood home with my husband and two dogs.  Upstairs, my mother and her husband live.  My mother is never supposed to be alone due to her health.   I am without the motivation to actually be a help to my ailing mother because my depression and migraines are winning.  Which means that i ate sweets pretending it was meal...

I am thankful to be almost through one of the most trying years of my existence. I am thankful for coworkers that stand up for me. I am thankful for making an impact on others. I am thankful for my amazing boyfriend. I am thankful for my siblings. I am thankful for knowing I can survive.

http://invisibleillnessweek.com 30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know 1. The illness I live with is: Chronic Migraines, Asthma, Some undiagnosed thing, depression 2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2005 (ofish-fish 2007), 1995, 2014?, 3. But I had symptoms since: 2000, ever, 2000 4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: medications every day, avoiding foods I enjoy, dark days 5. Most people assume: That because I take preventative medicines I don't have any issues 6. The hardest part about mornings are: Checking in with my pain levels and breathing to see if I can do what I want to. Sometimes, convincing myself that what I enjoy is worth getting out of bed. 7. My favorite medical TV show is: Grey's Anatomy 8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: my cell phone 9. The hardest part about nights are: Nightmares I get from meds. 10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins. (No comments, please) 12 types, 19 actual pills 11. Regarding alternative treatm...

dafsfd I am thankful for my dad, and all the times he was there for me. I am thankful for my work and that good I can do. I am thankful for the breath of children. I am thankful for our police and firefighters I am thankful for the Marines and Navy I am thankful that the feeling in my gut that shows up when I see 9/11 written down passing another year. I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for Pumpkin Spice flavoring. I am thankful for all the letters I can sign after my name. I am thankful for amazing coworkers I can depend on.

For the most part the last week or two has been rather boring. There isn't a lot interesting going on at my work (Thank the monkeys.  We needed a some boring time.) My sister is visiting, but we don't sight see and such.  We hang.  It's the best.  I love that she and my boyfriend and pretty comfortable near each other already.  She's gonna be here a while. I had a migraine for a week. I wish that was somehow interesting or abnormal. It still isn't.  I got a med change.  I want that to be interesting and abnormal too.  It still isn't. I missed a bunch of work.  My coworkers noticed.  That matters to me. However a few things are official that haven't been official very long: I officially have an abnormal MRI and a normal EEG.  What does that mean?  No clue.  You could Google it. I officially have an effective Essure procedure and can't have kids. I officially have an MHP  (mental health professional) title. ...

I am thankful for my sister. I am thankful for being able to say no. I am thankful for the chris people in my life. I am thankful for my boundaries I am thankful for effective medications. I am thankful for good causes and free tickets. I am thankful for warm sweatshirts. I am thankful for pumpkin spice latte. I am thankful for fall.

I am thankful for my mom and sister. I am thankful for my boyfriend. I am thankful for my cousin Drew returning home (and very proud of him). I am thankful for how inspiring he is not only to me, but to my mom and uncle. I am thankful for hope. I am thankful for the kids at work. I am thankful for my amazing coworkers. I am thankful for compassion, forgiveness and optimism that I can hold onto with minimal effort. I am thankful for neurologists I believe will provide answers someday.  I am thankful I continue to have this belief and the energy to look for answers. I am thankful for cough medicine.  Best thing EVER. I am thankful for upcoming benefits and being able to provide for my spoonie self again. I am thankful for supervisors that support "I'm gonna throw all your stuff away" sticky notes and emails. (Seriously #blessed) I am thankful for my MHP and for all the work I've put in leading to another piece of paper that says I don't suck. for realzies...