Nerd @ 190

I know I haven't written one of these in a while. I was struggling to feel inspired for a while. I also am aware it is not Friday.  I spent the day exploring NYC yesterday and got a little distracted. My inspiration is Shiloh.  I heard stories about him as I grew up, but my immediate family didn't have any real connection to him until recently. (You can hate a lot about Facebook,  but it's amazing way to communicate with distant family.) Shiloh was sick for a long time. Yet, he remained positive.  He passed that positivity to me in my struggles with my health. I will be carrying his hope and good nature with me through the future. Making a change towards inputting that into my daily life is the best thing I can do to remember him and be a healthier person.

I'm skipping pride this year. Scheduling didn't work out for Seattle and the New York trip. Technically,  I am in New York for NYC  pride. However,  I am with a family of small children and pride rallies are not easy for small children. I have no doubt about this decision.  However,  I love pride. I love any celebration of self and community. It's amazing to get this moment to celebrate and mourn in such a big way. With no pride celebration for me this yesr, I just wanted to take a moment to say thank you. I am thankful for all of the people currently fighting for equality world wide. I am thankful for all of those that have sacrificed for the steps we have taken.  If you can, get out and dance with the parades. I will work a extra hard to vocalize my pride this year.

I am thankful for sweet strangers that treat me like family. I am thankful for my friends and family continued prayers and concerns I am thankful for people that hug me when I start screaming crying mid sentence. I am thankful for the year I had communicating with Shiloh on a regular basis. I am thankful for my family and planning dinner with them. I am thankful for the evil little monsters in my life (sorry,  that should read my nephews and neice). I am thankful for New York pizza. I am thankful for ice packs and knee braces. I am thankful for everyone on the #sickgirlproblems hashtag.

I shouted at the screen quickly followed by "God damn Lundqvist." I am feeling the best I have all month.  I am really enjoying the game. My kings beat my bestie's Rangers while I'm in New York for the first time. Stanley Cup Champs! This is how to live. Then my leg kicks off the table of its own will. I shall continue to say I'm dancing with abandon. though I'm spasming constantly.  I had a horrifying headache that wouldn't respond to medications. I had a supposedly simple procedure that turned into a several day ordeal.  However, I am in New York and arrived here by cross country road trip. Even with all of the challenges of the last year, I stay focused on my life long goals. My bucket list items are dropping like flies. I'm here and trying to enjoy myself. My bestie is working on not asking me every ten seconds if I am okay. She has gone 3 hours today, but that's because mom is here and the kids are showing off their intelligence every chan...

I am thankful for my sister taking care of the finances so I can take time to cross things off my bucket list. I am thankful for my friends that don't get mad when I can't do things that would make life so much easier. I am thankful for my Switzer family and the extended Cullen family that are taking great care of me and allowing me to do things I otherwise could not. I am thankful I didn't die on the George Washington Bridge. I am thankful for sunrise in so many different places. I am thankful for the crying of children in the morning making it clear that my nieces and nephews are awake, are loved and cared for, and so spoiled they don't even know. I am thankful for a man that loves me and doesn't actually accept I have doubts as an answer. I am thankful for a sister that is a fish nerd. (Who knew there were historical fish hatcheries?) I am thankful for being able to email my doctor even though he doesn't seem to respond. I am thankful for driving acr...

I'm thankful for understanding and helpful coworkers.  The kind that say "Wait, how did you get here? You aren't getting on a bus. Go home and rest." I'm thankful for the amazing Switzer family taking care of me when I need it most.  I'm so blessed to have my amazing Amber and Chris to help me out the last few days.  I would not have survived alone. I'm thankful for my mom, sister and besties checking in on me. I'm thankful for people that won't ever tell me that my health has scared them again. I'm thankful for a bestie that can joke about how silly her text message sounded when I was at the ER. I am thankful for Amber being able to joke about sitting at the ER while nurses are concerned I'm bleeding internally. I'm thankful Amber can be mad about people checking in too many times. I'm thankful for Chris trying to be calm while he's pissed off that I'm getting out of a chair. I'm thankful for the number of time...