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Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for my sister taking care of the finances so I can take time to cross things off my bucket list.
I am thankful for my friends that don't get mad when I can't do things that would make life so much easier.
I am thankful for my Switzer family and the extended Cullen family that are taking great care of me and allowing me to do things I otherwise could not.
I am thankful I didn't die on the George Washington Bridge.
I am thankful for sunrise in so many different places.
I am thankful for the crying of children in the morning making it clear that my nieces and nephews are awake, are loved and cared for, and so spoiled they don't even know.
I am thankful for a man that loves me and doesn't actually accept I have doubts as an answer.
I am thankful for a sister that is a fish nerd. (Who knew there were historical fish hatcheries?)
I am thankful for being able to email my doctor even though he doesn't seem to respond.
I am thankful for driving across a lovely country.
I am thankful for travel the bear.
I am thankful for a nephew that is understanding about the fact that I'm sick and can't always do things even though he doesn't understand illness.
I am thankful for hugs from strangers that I think of as family.
I am thankful for advise from family on how to take care of myself even though I want to tell everyone to shut up because I don't even know what's wrong.
I am thankful for taking this trip even though I am struggling with my health this whole time.

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