Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for my niece and her whole year on this earth. I enjoyed all the firsts I get with her and can't wait for many more
As per usual, I am thankful for my sister.
I am thankful for the man I live with helping me out so much.
I am thankful for my besties, near and far and all the support they give.
I am thankful for Seattle, even with the heat.
I am thankful for my work and that it is noticed.
I am thankful for my doctor finally doing everything right.
I am thankful for a full schedule.
I am thankful for awesome coworkers and great environment to come to.
I am thankful for the funny and kind bus driver I had the last few days.
I am thankful for my friend Amber and her being on this earth another year. She is a blessing in my life and I hope she has a wonderful birthday to be thankful for.

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