Nerd @ 190

I am thankful to be almost through one of the most trying years of my existence. I am thankful for coworkers that stand up for me. I am thankful for making an impact on others. I am thankful for my amazing boyfriend. I am thankful for my siblings. I am thankful for knowing I can survive.

http://invisibleillnessweek.com 30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know 1. The illness I live with is: Chronic Migraines, Asthma, Some undiagnosed thing, depression 2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2005 (ofish-fish 2007), 1995, 2014?, 3. But I had symptoms since: 2000, ever, 2000 4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: medications every day, avoiding foods I enjoy, dark days 5. Most people assume: That because I take preventative medicines I don't have any issues 6. The hardest part about mornings are: Checking in with my pain levels and breathing to see if I can do what I want to. Sometimes, convincing myself that what I enjoy is worth getting out of bed. 7. My favorite medical TV show is: Grey's Anatomy 8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: my cell phone 9. The hardest part about nights are: Nightmares I get from meds. 10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins. (No comments, please) 12 types, 19 actual pills 11. Regarding alternative treatm...

dafsfd I am thankful for my dad, and all the times he was there for me. I am thankful for my work and that good I can do. I am thankful for the breath of children. I am thankful for our police and firefighters I am thankful for the Marines and Navy I am thankful that the feeling in my gut that shows up when I see 9/11 written down passing another year. I am thankful for my family. I am thankful for Pumpkin Spice flavoring. I am thankful for all the letters I can sign after my name. I am thankful for amazing coworkers I can depend on.

For the most part the last week or two has been rather boring. There isn't a lot interesting going on at my work (Thank the monkeys.  We needed a some boring time.) My sister is visiting, but we don't sight see and such.  We hang.  It's the best.  I love that she and my boyfriend and pretty comfortable near each other already.  She's gonna be here a while. I had a migraine for a week. I wish that was somehow interesting or abnormal. It still isn't.  I got a med change.  I want that to be interesting and abnormal too.  It still isn't. I missed a bunch of work.  My coworkers noticed.  That matters to me. However a few things are official that haven't been official very long: I officially have an abnormal MRI and a normal EEG.  What does that mean?  No clue.  You could Google it. I officially have an effective Essure procedure and can't have kids. I officially have an MHP  (mental health professional) title. ...

I am thankful for my sister. I am thankful for being able to say no. I am thankful for the chris people in my life. I am thankful for my boundaries I am thankful for effective medications. I am thankful for good causes and free tickets. I am thankful for warm sweatshirts. I am thankful for pumpkin spice latte. I am thankful for fall.

I am thankful for my mom and sister. I am thankful for my boyfriend. I am thankful for my cousin Drew returning home (and very proud of him). I am thankful for how inspiring he is not only to me, but to my mom and uncle. I am thankful for hope. I am thankful for the kids at work. I am thankful for my amazing coworkers. I am thankful for compassion, forgiveness and optimism that I can hold onto with minimal effort. I am thankful for neurologists I believe will provide answers someday.  I am thankful I continue to have this belief and the energy to look for answers. I am thankful for cough medicine.  Best thing EVER. I am thankful for upcoming benefits and being able to provide for my spoonie self again. I am thankful for supervisors that support "I'm gonna throw all your stuff away" sticky notes and emails. (Seriously #blessed) I am thankful for my MHP and for all the work I've put in leading to another piece of paper that says I don't suck. for realzies...

I am divergent. I am so many things that make up a good person . I am erudite.  I am reading so much right now thanks to a schedule that prioritizes quiet personal activities.  My bookmark is a photo of my dead dad that popped up in an unopened book a week ago. I'm reading a memoir written for someone else's dead mom and listening to a teenager breathe and her phone battery drain. I mean, and a teenager's music collection. This is exhausting. The photo popped up last week in a book I never opened before, but had dropped in my bag to read at work. It sat on a pile of things to pay attention to once the kids were asleep. That took a long time since a few of my coworkers (and I) got punched in the head that day.  I was relieved to see a picture of my dad and that I had my migraine that night. Not just any headache, but MY migraine complete with aura and slight nasea. Not a concussion or even broken glasses. (Thanks to years of practice catching glasses at concerts and bend...